I’m not trying to be ungrateful here, but

I want a new job, or at least another one. I honestly have no problem working two jobs; I only work 4 hours a day as it is. I wouldn’t be so bothered by this, if I could in fact support myself. As it is, I cannot. I feel really selfish and spoiled complaining about my JOB when there are about 6.8 million Americans out of a job. I am just sick and tiered of working in a dead end position that is teaching me absolutely nothing. The women who I work with are all really nice ladies, but, even considering that they are all 30, 40 something years old, they’re actually kind of immature. There is always some drama going on around me, they don’t like each other and they talk behind each other’s backs. It is so annoying and catty. Look I am only 19 years old, and I can take a lot of things from annoying little high school girls, but I have a really hard time dealing with all this coming from people who have teenagers of their own. Also, I am very, very disappointed in the lack of respect I seem to get around here. I’m not saying that anyone opening treats me like crap, and I don’t mind light teasing, I mean I grew up in a house full of boys in a family whose fist language is sarcasm, a little teasing is all in good fun. What I am talking about is different. I am sick of people taking over my desk and using my computer and acting like it’s no big deal. I’m so sick of people asking me to do something for them and then telling me how to do it, especially when there is really know one right way to be doing it. As a matter of fact, I think I could deal with all of that just fine if I wasn’t so depressed. I am physically tired when I am sitting at my desk. I have to get up and walk around every 10-15 minutes just to stay alert. When it’s time to leave I practically run down the stairs to my car, like I have some fabulous party awaiting me when I get home. I can’t stand it here, but I have nowhere to go. If I quit my father will kick me out, or worse stop caring all together and just ignore me for the next few years. I can’t move out because I don’t make enough money to support myself. I need to be interacting with people my own age, or at least in the same generation. I am the youngest person here by at least ten years. I need to find a job in retail or food, somewhere, there are actual customers and I can talk to people face to face. I just want to meet new people and actually learn something and possibly even have at least the possibility of a promotion. I am lonely and broke, frustrated and most of all BORED. I can’t stand to keep coming to the same place, the same time EVERYDAY and doing the same thing day after day after day. I need variety! I need something new and different. July 27th will mark one year that I have been with this company, and I feel that it is time to move on.

It’s just not working out for me anymore, it’s not you, it’s me. I’m sorry, but I think that it would be better for both of us if we just went our separate ways.

Shelby’s Soul Sister Project.

As some of you might know I am turning 20 on July 9th.
And as some of you might also know, I like to make videos.
(putting 2 and 2 together yet?)
I’m sure you have all heard the song Hey Soul Sister by Train?
Well I was thinking of making that my birthday song.
I was also thinking of getting other people involved in my birthday video.
So here it is:

Make of video, of you singing, playing, lip singing Hey Soul Sister, along with a short note, greeting to me in honor of my birthday. Upload it to YouTube and then send it to me, or send me the file in MPEG format. If you do not have a YouTube account, then I would be happy to lend you a password. I guess more appropriately this project should be called, A Smile For Shelby Project. . . Hey Soul Shelby, Shelby's Soul Sister?

The rules are simple:
-Hey Soul Sister, must be the song
-Can be as long or as short as you want it to be (not all of it will be used)
-Keep it PG, please
-HAVE FUN!

After all the hullabaloo of my birthday is over, I will go through the footage and edit it all together into a very special birthday video :) For any further information just ask! (call/text/message/tweet/skywrite)